Uneasy feeling...

It is hard to describe how it feels to take a year off from 'real life' and travel as a family.  It feels really good...almost too good.  Code and I always feel like at any time everything will unravel and the trip will disasterously in financial ruin, or our careers will derail, our health will fail, or you name it.  I almost feel that sense of guilt, like I am cutting class, and I know I am doing something wrong and I am going to get nailed for it (even though I NEVER cut class, at least in highschool, for fear of getting caught).  It is like the opposite of that saying: All work and no play...we're All play and no work, but it is hardly dull!

What has been interesting is our transition from easily explaining our trip to perplexed acquaintances to being perplexed ourselves, wondering why we are having to explain our life.  We wonder why we see so few others families-or even couples- out and about for a year.  I guess if you do something out of the norm long enough, it begins to feel normal.  Now it hardly crosses my mind that our kids are schooled 'at home', that we are both working (albeit part time) remotely, and that our home is on a boat.  

Maybe I am feeling more of that sense of being unnerved is  because we are off the boat and travelling inland.  Maybe that we're off the boat and living so nomadically - detatched from our home base if you will - that things feel so much more fragile. Of course, that sense isnt stopping us.  We note it and go on.  I want to prove to ourselves that you can live outside the comfort zone and still have a sense of stability as a person and as a family.  

So, instead of going off to the office, we're off to the pool for the afternoon.  Then again, it is Sunday, and we would be off to the pool in our regular lives, but at least there's no mountains of laundry to fold when you each only carry a single change of clothes and spare underwear.  Tomorrow and the next day we're off to the slopes, and then next week we're off to Paris for a week.  After that another week of skiing at another spot in Austria, then back to the boat to get ready to sail in April.  Real life will be back in our lives all too soon, and I am sure I will look back at this posting and wonder what the hell I was so worried about.